To me, educations purpose is to educate, not advance. So they may have their opinions, as long as I have my satisfaction.
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| — | Daniel |
Journal 2: 5/7
Sitting in bed-
Doing more thinking. I just watched a movie called The Other Man, with Liam Neson and Antonio Banderas. It was about love and … well the difficulties of going through life. (at least that is what I saw in it) Life is so difficult, on many different levels. How do you know what you want, who you want, where you want to be, and who you are. I know I said in my last journal that I had an idea of who that person was… but do we ever really know who we are. Things change so fast all the time, one of the fastest changing things is my mind… the smallest thing can have the biggest impact on anything. That smallest thing holds so much power in the larger picture of anything really. And when you sit down and think about it… you control a lot of small things. You can do something small and have a huge impact on something, or you can do something monumental and the smallest thing can have a huge impact on it. How do you know which way to move, what words to say, what face to make? When everything has an impact. You can’t even do “nothing” with out that having an impact. When you face a problem, how do you know who to talk to, who will have that impact on you that will help you… WHO ARE YOU? That brings me to my next … thing, EVERYTHING CAN BE SEEN FROM DIFFERENT EYES BUT HOW DO YOU KNOW WHICH EYES ARE YOURS? That is a question that is going to take a long time for me to figure out…
Journal 1: 5/1
10:56 AM
The Hills-
Rode my bike over here for the first time…. kind of hard haha. Probably because I hate physical activity. It is pretty cloudy and spitting on my net book… thanks clouds. Overall it is pretty nice. I am starting the journal blog thing to try to straighten out my mind. I am currently very stressed, confused and lost with where I am at in life. I keep trying to tell myself that that is typical for a 19 year old guy… but I don’t feel like I am very “average” anymore. Growing up I always felt normal and like I was just a normal, average, typical boy. But now I feel like I am different than anyone else in my life. Everyone else either has a set of goals, and they are focused and they know 1)What they want, 2)Where they want to go 3)Who they want to be 4) Who they like and 5) Basically who they are. Or they don’t know what they want and they don’t have the balls to get it. But I know most of the things that I list… I just don’t know all of the specifics. WHO I AM: I want to grow up and be in theater. I want to go to Kent State to further myself in Theater. I want to live in a city, probably not a huge city. And I want a girlfriend of a Wife who I know cares about me and excepts who I am and loves me for it. I want to seize my days. That is mostly who I am. Well that felt good to think about. I am going to go write a poem for my language arts project. bye.
An actor must interpret life, and in order to do so must be willing to accept all the experiences life has to offer. In fact, he must seek out more of life than life puts at his feet.
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| — | James Dean |
INVICTUS
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be,
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears,
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
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| — | William Ernest Henley |
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