10:56 AM

The Hills-

Rode my bike over here for the first time…. kind of hard haha. Probably because I hate physical activity. It is pretty cloudy and spitting on my net book… thanks clouds. Overall it is pretty nice. I am starting the journal blog thing to try to straighten out my mind. I am currently very stressed, confused and lost with where I am at in life. I keep trying to tell myself that that is typical for a 19 year old guy… but I don’t feel like I am very “average” anymore. Growing up I always felt normal and like I was just a normal, average, typical boy. But now I feel like I am different than anyone else in my life. Everyone else either has a set of goals, and they are focused and they know 1)What they want, 2)Where they want to go 3)Who they want to be 4) Who they like and 5) Basically who they are. Or they don’t know what they want and they don’t have the balls to get it. But I know most of the things that I list… I just don’t know all of the specifics. WHO I AM: I want to grow up and be in theater. I want to go to Kent State to further myself in Theater. I want to live in a city, probably not a huge city. And I want a girlfriend of a Wife who I know cares about me and excepts who I am and loves me for it. I want to seize my days. That is mostly who I am. Well that felt good to think about. I am going to go write a poem for my language arts project. bye.